a work in progress

I am a child of god and i'm also a work in progress. my prayer_ my want_ is to always be.

i want change in me. i hope that you're always able to see change in me _ thru me. 

i don’t want to be that person someone looks at or sees 10 years from now and says “you haven’t changed a bit” nope, I want to be different.

bc he has been the difference.

even if it’s the difference I’ll be for my kids in their lives. 

i do not claim to know nor have it all together. but I am seeking his face_ drawing nearer to him_ listening for his voice and learning to receive his grace that’s offered me daily. 

something I’ve found hard at times to do. and i’m going to mess up.

i’m going to have an awful attitude at times.

but then there’s God who says I’m worthy not worthless despite it all. he never throws in the towel bc of my sin or says “I’ve about had it with this one right here. she wants the best out of life and expects me to bless her. I think i’m about done with her. she just has it too good” lol no… he’s our dad, our Father and why wouldn’t He want so much more for us. in fact, he says in spite of it all_ what you did_ what your doing_ what you’ll ever do… I still love you. he gives me do-over’s every new day when we don’t get that luxury a lot of times with people.

and I don’t have the answers but I look to the one who does.

the one who never lets go of our hand.

the one who has overcome the world.

Jode and i decided years ago that we weren’t accepting mediocre or settling for mundane. why would we? when we serve a God who is able to do exceedingly far more than we could ever imagine. that is hope. that means we don’t have to be miserable in our lives. we were created for a purpose with a purpose.

as unhealthy chains of past sinfulness & shame are broken I can feel the shift. I’m feeling the freedom from it all as old ways_ old thought processes and lies that I’ve believed about myself are unraveled and exposed. laid bare. only God can bring about life and restoration when things are brought into the light. it’s when things go hidden that it gives power to and over us.

in truth we don’t need many things in life but I NEED more of jesus. 

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also, I love worship music. ugh,hmm and I may just sing it at the top of my lungs when I’m by myself or when the kids are in the car with me in car line… just because. it truly can be the difference maker in my day. I’ve noticed it with my kids, too when having it on in the house. especially, in the evenings when things can get a little frazzled. there’s a difference. and too, I love hearing their mouths sing out truth. makes my heart swell. 


sometimes I get tired of my same rotation of music, though. i need something fresh_ something new. so I was going to put youtube videos on here of some new favorites i've found but instead figured I’d just give you the links. Annnnnd I’m hoping you’ll tell me some of your favorite’s. i would love to know or maybe something fresh & new you’ve found recently.

Lord I need you_ Chris Tomlin

“my one defense

my righteousness

oh god how I need you”

God is Able_ Hillsong

“lifted up

defeated the grave

raised to life

our god is able

in his name we overcome

for the lord our god is able”

Give Me faith_ Elevation Worship

“give me faith to trust what you say

that your good and your love is great

I’m broken inside

I give you my life

I need you

all I am I surrender

I may be weak

but your spirits strong in me

my flesh may fail but my god you never will”

All my Fountains_ Chris Tomlin (this is a fun clappity-clap song)

**And lastly, I just found All Sons and Daughters and to say that they’re awesome is an understatement. such goodness in their music. go give them a listen.

Reason to Sing_ All Sons and Daughters

"your peace is the melody

you sing it over me now

i need a reason to sing

i need to know your still holding the whole world in your hand

and that is my reason to sing"

All the Poor and Powerless- All Sons and Daughters

"shout it

go on and scream it from the mountains

go on and tell it to the masses

that he is god

we will sing out hallelujah

we will cry out hallelujah"

Linking up with Jami

heather.