This is going to be one of those heart to heart_ tough to put out there posts’. I try to avoid writing or sharing too many of these bc I would rather hold things in_ not cause any ripples, you know. But as a good friend said this week "it's when we hold things in that the enemy has the ability to keep using it in our thought process and lives."
This week has been a rough one… an emotional one
I am an extremely loyal person probably even to a default sometimes.
Because when I open myself up for others and when they don’t feel or reciprocate that same loyalty, I in turn get hurt. This blog and heathers happys has been so many things wrapped up into one big ole' package and sealed with a kiss & hug.
It’s where I share our joys’ & pains, where I try and capture little things for my kids to have to look back on. I imagine them all grown up showing their spouses’ and kids “look what mom used to do. She was so crazy and what was she thinking.” Hopefully, they will have great memories of their childhood and others will be penned down for the ones that manage to slip away.
But what do you do when someone repeatedly makes the decision to take something from you that you’ve put time, energy and creative juices into? I felt like the air had been sucked out of me and I wanted to throw up my hands and just let them have it. All of it....that's how I felt this week.
Yet I wondered is it really worth it.?
When we lay our head on a pillow at night we have to wonder about our motives.
And what are our motives?
I’m a stay at home mom to a 12, 11, and 9 year old trying to do my part in the household by using my talents to help our family. Thankfully, blogging doesn’t define me, having a little handmade business, none of that is where I find my worth or significance.
It’s a byproduct of who I am and how I express who I am. It’s fun and I find so much joy in being able to make an item and have someone like it . And for you to purchase it is like a cherry on top of my already sundae.
But still it has the ability to sting…to hurt.
So I have to go back to blogging 101 and remember why I started it to begin with and why I chose to make things.
At the end of the day my loyalty to other’s is bigger ….no amount of money or popularity would ever be worth it.
And when I remember and go back to Jesus101 and what he says I read:
Do to others as you would have them do to you.
Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.
Show proper respect to everyone, love the family of believers, fear God, honor the emperor.1 Peter 2:17
So I take some deep breaths, I pray a whole lot, I go sit on the couch with my love’s, I keep on creating handmade goodness that makes me smile and
I keep on telling my story.
Because your story and mine is ours and no one can ever take that from us.